15 – Vortex of negative thoughts

A little late with this one today, but it’s here!

I think this one kind of speaks for itself, but I should note for anyone who doesn’t know this that this is basically the root of depression. A spiral into hell of our own thoughts, a mind filled with traps and barbs to snare you just when you least expect it.

I was basically knocked out cold yesterday by this – slept most of the day, was like a complete zombi, drained of all energy and creativity, and it’s because somewhere inside my head, on the “astral plane”, I was fighting the Shadow King (for all you X-Men fans out there…). It’s really exhausting, even when you’re not sure it’s happening, but as soon as you recognise it, it’s just this slurry of negativity. Words like “fake” and “fraud” and “selfish” running around as you argue with yourself.

From a Freudian perspective, it’s like ego taking control and battling itself. It’s pure the abyss, so it is.

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